So much for,

Hi.

In the year 2007, I was really close to this girl, who is 1 year older than me. My first impression of her? 'Sombongnya senior ni :s'. I told her this, she laughed her heart out. Okay, we started being close during prefect's camp in 07 ( Yeh I was a prefect for two years ). She was my roomate + Najat + Sakinah. I showed my true self, like how loud / crazy I can be and all. I remember the 2nd day (?) Zue slept with the three of us in our room, we had a secret telling session before we went to sleep. I told them I had a crush on _______. Everybody shared their secrets. And we got to know that there was a senior who fell head over heels for Najat. LOL. Najat became all unconformable and stuff. She was avoiding him like duh. Lol okay moving on. I often come to her house, just to hang out. I slept over her house once. She wanted to sleep late, but I was oh so sleepy so because of me we both slept kinda early. 3am+. We camwhored and all. Since I was in love with her camera. Hihi. Every week, we'd call and talk for hours. When i mean hours, I mean 4 - 5 hours. I tell almost EVERYTHING to her. What I feel and all. Knowing me, I am not the type to let go everything out. but I wasn't afraid, i didn't have doubts at all. I know she can be trusted.
We were like the best of friends. Our friendship started to go upside down in 2008. I made new good friends. Knowing her, she's the sensitive type. I guess she feels that I've forgotten her and all. She told me so, but I fixed things. Then during walkathon 08, she bought a new phone. She was all excited to show me and she was planning to camewhore with me using her new phone. But my other friend, had some problems on that day. So I had to help to calm her down and such. She started to feel that she's not even important, she messaged me the next day, I fixed things and we were okay. Then during my birthday party, i was on the way with this dude, my first boyf, so i was like, couldnt resist to layan him. She was invited, so was Amira and fatin. & bak kata Amira ' I understand, you feel like a kid who just got a new toy' I did pay attention to her, but not as much. I guess I paid more attention to my phone. The nextnextnext day, she told me that again, she felt like she's not important to me. At that time, I was sick of her sensitiveness, I didn't pujuk or anything at all. Only now I realise how stupid I am for not understanding her. * I think my information is a bit messed up cs I couldn't really remember the exact day or when did it happen. So our friendship ended just like that. Like what the fuck right. After months or one year if I'm not mistaken. I tried to fix things up, it worked. a BIT. but no it didn't last long. Now, we smile like yeah I know you. Like that. je. How sad. I don't know if she's going to read this. But if so, I'm sure you know who you are. Siti.

Amira too. We were close. We were like inseparable triplets. Amira, Siti and I.
What happened man. Okay stupid question.
but yeah.

Ohfuck. I really miss the old us.
Oh why suddenly you ask? Dah lama dah actually. But I just feel like letting this out. Again.

Sorry if my english is all over the place.