We were both in love with Mike Shinoda.

When I was little, like std 2 (?) till std 5, I was really close with M, my cousin. I'd sleep at her house every weekend. We'd play Barbie, make sandwiches, do some creative stuff, play/bathe in the bathtub together and you name it, pretty much everything. No doubt she was my favourite cousin ever. Oh fuck, reminiscing like this ain't a good idea, I feel like crying :/

K back to the story

We'd do everything together.
Then, when she turned 12.
Everything started to change. Her way of thinking, her life and such.
I couldn't fit in, somehow.
Things haven't been the same until now.
We're not close anymore.
Whenever I go to her house, she'd be out with her friends or she'd be in her room.
We don't talk that much anymore.
Sekarang lagi better than dulu la, but still.

I guess cs she's 19 this year, and i'm 16.
Her friends are around that age 19 - 20ish, I can't really find a way to fit in. To get along.

heh.

I can't deny, whenever we spend time together or when we talk / have a conversation. I can't help to smile & hope that one fine day, we'll be close like we used to be. Amin.

Well I don't know. I don't think I can ever fit in with her friends and all. Idkwtf is wrong with me, malu ke apa macam haram je at times. Fuck this.


Er well hm, this is actually real upsetting.
I just miss .. Everything.

But I guess I'm used to it already :)