You were about to leave, so as always. I salamed you. I mean ofcourse, you're older right. & you said " oh, bye sayang. Text me la okay if anything? " Do you know that it hurts? I seriously don't know what's on your mind. Were you just being nice, or did you really mean it. Do you even care about me now? I'm always me, really I've never tried to be different. To Belong. I just don't know how to. We used to do everything together man. That was a long long time ago ofcourse. To me, you were like the best friend that I've always wanted, the best sister that I never had, the best thing is, we are related & close. What more could I asked for? I remember, during my 8th/9th/10th? Birthday you gave me a card saying something like 'you're the best ever, don't ever change'. I didn't. I just grew older, and I just went along with the flow. You're the one who changed. So. Bloody. Fast. Really. Like ZAP. Terus lain nak mati.
I wasn't crapping. I really miss you. You as in You. I want to be able to share my feelings with you, my problems with you. I want to go on a shopping spree with you. Talk. And laugh together. Doing things together. I've always wanted a sister, why can't you stay the same and be mine? Obviously we don't play Barbie anymore. This time, we can actually talk about the reality. What's happening around us. I want That with you.
You don't always get what you want.
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