2011

Hello.

My eyes are twitching due to the fact that today is the 31st of December. Which means that tomorrow.. is 2012. Wow, time flies. It really does. So, let me just blog about the things that happened in 2011.

January was a good month for me. I don't really remember what happened but yeah.

February, can't remember much.

Okay let's face it, it's impossible for me to remember what happened in each month. 

but let's just sum everything up.

Something happened, I won't tell what exactly happened but it made me So miserable. I've never felt that kind of pain, miserable, in my entire life. I was actually really down. I kept on asking "why" but I know it was a test. I had faith. I guess you can pretty much say I was a faker. I pretty much faked everything this year, the laughs, smiles. It's not like I did it on purpose. I just had to. I was trying to hide everything. I think it kind of worked. The reason why I'm writing all of this down on my blog is because This particular phase is over and I just want to start fresh. So ok, I'm just going to continue and I beg of you to not bring This up in real life. Thanks.  Anyway. I remember a friend saying this to me "Adeee! You're always smiling ni mesti tak ada problems" I just smiled but it my head I was like "HOTAK KAU BODOH". But it's all cool. So okay, did you guys know I fucking suffered, every. single. night. And at that point of time, when people make a fuss about me not being there for them I just wanted to slap them So hard but I know it's not their fault. It was mine. But sometimes you just can't help yourself right? It's not that I was selfish, it's because my problems were major and it never failed to pop up in my head. & All of this happened during SPM year to top it off, I had to do this stupid Seni folio which, Alhamdulillah, I aced it. Seriously You can't imagine what I had to go through but it's okay. Alhamdulillah, everything is better now. Not perfect, but better. I can actually sleep with a smile carved on my phase. Although I really badly want some things to happen, but we'll see. I know I have to just pray and hope for the best. & to top it off, my auntie is diagnosed with cancer, quite a serious case and I am scared. InsyaAllah everything will be fine. I also had dengue, my parents too. Had to stay in the hospital for 6 days DURING SPM. Yes. I had to miss a paper. Isnt that messed up. But when I was in the hospital, my family and friends really showed great support and Hani even made me sup ketam, which was yummy. I am blessed with such good friends, thank you. I love you guys. 

But ofcourse, there are some good things happened too.

Like, my friends surprised me w a fairy lights in my room, made me cry. Like getting closer to some people. Got to meet my lovely Kyle Patrick, aced my seni folio, got a job and the people there are nice, 

this that this that this that, studied like mad cows at giant with goodfriends

etc etc etc.

I'll tell more if I've the mood.

Okay, now shush.