Private escape.

In my head are thoughts (duh)
I think I have this slight connection with the word thoughts. 

Well anyway,
back to the story (what story?). It's a mixture of good and bad, as in, my thoughts. I don't really know what I'm thinking. What should I be doing? I don't know. I feel messed up, but I know I'm not. Starting work next week. I'll give it a shot for 3 months. I hope everything will turn up alright. My worry is ; since next year is known to be the year of bands coming here, in Malaysia. How am I going to.. go to the concert if the concert is on my well.. working day. No! The reason why I decided to work is because of this. How the hell am I going to afford to buy concert tickets if I don't earn money. BUT WHAT IF IT CLASHES!??!

You see, I'm a worrier. Why can't I be like Xena (Xena the warrior princess?). Yea, why can't I be Adilah the Warrior. I want to be a Princess too. Hahahahha I do crack myself up at times.

I think too much, it's annoying.

Currently listening : Bright Eyes - At The Bottom Of Everything

It's a happy song.


I know I have friends. No, rephrase that. Good friends, that I can really rely on. But sometimes I just feel, empty. The thing is, I don't really know what I want. I've this image that I created in my head, trying my best to make it come true but I know it takes a lot of hard work. Trying to.

I admit, there are things that are bothering (still) me.
Like I said, I want everyone to be happy.
I want to be happy.
Happy and satisfied.

I've said it so many times already.

But I guess in life, you can never be fully satisfied with what you have.

I hate watching the people I love suffer.

Ok,
When I'm down or when I really don't have mood, I avoid people. To avoid any misunderstandings.
Did I tell you I Hate misunderstandings? Well. Yeah. I do.

I try. I do try.

But sometimes I just can't help myself.