Hi, it's almost 3am but I am still wide awake. Maybe it's because I took a 'short' nap (3 hours) earlier. Uh ow and now my stomach's making funny music. Music?
Well anyway, I've always loved staying up. Yes, I know it's not good for you. For your growth and etc. Yes, I'm aware that I am turning 18 this year, my chance of growing is pretty small. But hey, nothing's impossible right? As I was saying, usually at this time of hour, my brain works extra fine.
I went to my cousin's house this morning. Instead of eating the delicious lauks, I ate the nasi lemak. Well hey, yes the Nasi Lemak was nice but the lauks were really nice, I have no idea why I didn't eat the lauks. Damn it. Well see, hey, I'm complaining. That's my problem. I Love to complain. I will always find faults in order to make my life miserable. Lol no, I am not saying that my life's miserable. It is not. Alhamdulillah, I have a house, loving parents, lovely family, trusted friends. But sometimes you just can't help it, to wish to have a better life. No problems. Everybody has their own problems, yes. I have mine too.
The thing is, I'd kill to be a better person. Better in every way. The word 'perfect' shouldn't even exist in this era. But who doesn't want to be close to perfection, yes?
I admit, my social skills aren't great. I always think people look down on me. But then again, fuck you if so. Who are you anyway? Back to the story, my self confidence is low (why am I even telling you guys this!!!!) but it needs a change. I'd love to meet new people and not be awkward around them, and knowing what to talk about to make the conversation interesting. But that's the thing, I can only do that to my loved ones. In a way, I'm indicating that you guys should really get to know me better hahahahaha. Ok cut the crap.
Have a nice day.
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