That's what they said

Why?
Why do our minds like to torture us?

"I have no time to think about unnecessary things"
^ with that, ladies and gentlemen, I just became the worst hypocrite ever.

I think too much, I really do. Don't tell your flaws on the net, they said. I agree. Why should people know our flaws, our weaknesses? We need to be strong enough too conquer  them. God is fair, each human being in this earth is his masterpiece.

I feel awful for being ungrateful. I know it's wrong. I. just. can't. help. it. I've been going through this invisible roller-coaster ride. & the ride hasn't been pleasant. Heck, my mind is definitely a silent murderer. I'm miserable but at the same time I am okay. Does that make sense?

I admit, I do not know how to express my feelings to people (including my loved ones). I keep things bottled up. It's not my choice to do so, that's just how I am. NO, do not ask me to open up. DON'T. A lot of people think that I am an optimist. I'd like to believe so but who the heck am I kidding? Haha!

Everything is a phase. You were apart of my particular phase for a couple of months, I liked it. Yeah.Then you kind of disappeared. What happened? I guess Life happened.

You know, I really have legit reasons (yes with an s) to feel this way.

Things will work out eventually.
InsyaAllah. Goodnight.