Hi.

I am currently listening to Alt-J's new album; This Is All Yours. So far so good. I discovered this band earlier this year, and yes it's safe to say that they're one of my fav bands. Their music gives me goosebumps. Yes, they are That good. 

Anyway,

Let me ask you this, how do you decipher your own feelings? Because I certainly don't know how to. 

Today in class, I sat with the usuals, and they were, kind of, pouring their heart out (tears included). Of course, I was sincerely listening, trying my best to understand them. Of course, I felt sad seeing my friends sad, you know? But that's the thing- I just listened and tried to cheer them up. A part of me wanted to open up but honestly, the right sentences didn't pop up in my head, I just couldn't. If I were to let out my feelings, the things that have been bothering me- what? I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me, no-

Wait.

I get it now, I just want to be understood. I just want people to understand me. Yeah, that's probably it. Sometimes I feel like I'm too young to go through whatever it is that I'm going through, well, what about the starving kids in Africa? What about those kids who are HIV positive? Etc etc. 

Feeling demotivated? Well, maybe God misses you. He's the only one that can fix things, and You have to show effort. You plan, He decides. Faith. You've got to have faith. Fight your inner thoughts, fight it. He knows what we need, what we want. Pray. Doa. If it happens, it happens. Alhamdulillah.

I swear I wanted to blog about something else. Oh well. 

Going to work this sem break. Need money, to buy a lot of stuff. I lost my makeup bag. Omg

Self reminder: You need to be grateful.

Goodnight, non existent readers x