It kills me to see you like this.

It does.

Just please, recover.

"If God tests you, it means that he loves you"

"God won't put you through things that you can't handle"

Okay.

I have to be strong.

I am.

I wouldn't mind if This affects me and only me-

but it's affecting the people around me.

and they shouldn't be affected.

It just makes me upset.

I just want to be selfish, let me be the only one who feels pain. 

I'll make it through, somehow or rather.