So I browsed through my old blog (2008-2010). All I can say is that, wow! A lot f things have changed. I have changed. I guess you can say that my old entries are such an entertainment and brings back memories. Yes. Made me realise that some people that I was so attached to, are now gone. G O N E. Gone as in- they've changed. If I somehow see some of them now, or if you ask me to well, sleepover their house I can assure you, it'd be awkward as Hell. (Or we might just catch up and be bffs again) But then again, that's rubbish. To think of it, I do feel the loss. And made me think, doesn't she/he miss me? Although both of us have different circle of good friends now. Oh well. Things have got to move on. Life is well, life. You can't expect anything from it, can you?
Also made me realise that.. my life is really dull compared to my life in 2008. Seriously! I read back my old posts, and I was like "Holy cow! I don't go through any of that now". Or maybe because I am more matured now, compared to my 14 year old self. Oh, yes I lost a few friends right? I mean, I lost the close bond that we used to have. It sucks though. I blame myself for that but- let's not go there shall we.
The future scares me. I mean, who's not scared of the future, right?
Ok ok, let's just get to the real story (Real?)
Actually, there are a lot of things that have been bothering me lately. I won't tell you guys what though. Ok, maybe just roughly. I bet you guys know how it feels to have your hope(s) crushed. Yes, at one point of my life, I hoped for something so badly, So badly. I thought I could finally, finally have it. But dumdidumdum. Nope, the 'thing' I hoped so badly for, didn't happen. Crushed right in front of my very own dark brown eyes. It hurt. I was badly hurt. (because of a few reasons, but I'm just going to skip it) WELL like I said, life must go on! Must must must.
Sometimes, I think that I am pathetic.
Sometimes, I feel like I'm just a kid, waiting for a miracle to happen
K wadever.
Goodnight.
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